YesterdayJoshfriends to help meconnectthetheJoshearnear thephone. I do not rememberthatI havesaid to him, I only know thatI have beencrying, crying. I believe he canhear what Isaid to him, helet himcrytears.
Until nowIstill can notaccept the fact, I stillcontinuetowait forJoshtocome backPenangto menext weekend. I have beenwaiting for himtocomeback. I have beenwaiting for himtoappearinthedreamofmynight. At the end of the year, he stilldid notappear in thenight Idream, I told myself, maybeInow live, becauseInever told himIliveinPenang,whichplace. I hope you canfind me, I hope you willappear in thenight Idream, I hopeI cangive you a hug, I hope you willcall my nameagain, I would like......I hope......
Thank you for giving mea goodpast few weeks.I am sogratefulthatyou gaveI am pleasedthatithas never happenedbefore, my previous life.